Change was such an elusive thing. A man could say every day that he wanted to change his life, was going to change it, and every day the lament became merely a part of the life he was already living, so that the desire for change was in fact a kind of stasis that allowed the unchanged life to continue, because at least the man knew to disapprove of it, which reassured him not all was lost.
~ Rachel Kushner, The Mars Room
Ah, the many ways we fool ourselves. How many ways to walk around the truth & call it something else.
I read a very good & tragic story of hers recently called "A King Alone."